I'm sorry... I've done it...

I hurt myself again... I can't help it.. I was panicking I was afraid.. I can't stop being scare .. I have to do it.. I can't get hold of anyone to speak of, I have to do it to stop myself from panicking to wake myself the fuck up and stop this hysteria. 

Now is just gulit.. I can't let him know I can't let anyone know I did this.. But it's my only way to escape my own way to stop the episode... Please forgive me... 

Forgive me for being such failure...

you won't let me talk to you... but i'm dying inside

SO FUCKING ANGRY WITH MYSELF!

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING ON THIS EARTH! IVE NO USE TO SOCIETY OR ANYONE! IM JUST A FUCKING WASTE OF SPACE! PLEASE JUST PUT ME OFF MY FUCKING MISERY!

What the fuck is wrong with me...

What the fuck am I doing ??

I feel so fucking useless, wasting my time away...

I miss you so fucking much...

why do you have to push me away...

I feel like my days are numbered...

I'm just a complete failure 

Death is all I felt when not a single souls reply to you and you really just want a presence or a cuddle...

Didn't know so far away from home I still feel like death 

Your voice is my only motivation to get through my day...