I'm sorry... I've done it...

I hurt myself again... I can't help it.. I was panicking I was afraid.. I can't stop being scare .. I have to do it.. I can't get hold of anyone to speak of, I have to do it to stop myself from panicking to wake myself the fuck up and stop this hysteria. 

Now is just gulit.. I can't let him know I can't let anyone know I did this.. But it's my only way to escape my own way to stop the episode... Please forgive me... 

Forgive me for being such failure...

you won't let me talk to you... but i'm dying inside

SO FUCKING ANGRY WITH MYSELF!

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING ON THIS EARTH! IVE NO USE TO SOCIETY OR ANYONE! IM JUST A FUCKING WASTE OF SPACE! PLEASE JUST PUT ME OFF MY FUCKING MISERY!

What the fuck is wrong with me...

What the fuck am I doing ??

I feel so fucking useless, wasting my time away...

I miss you so fucking much...

why do you have to push me away...

I feel like my days are numbered...

I'm just a complete failure 

Death is all I felt when not a single souls reply to you and you really just want a presence or a cuddle...

Didn't know so far away from home I still feel like death 

Your voice is my only motivation to get through my day...

When you are so sad for so long you started feeling scare all of a sudden and you can't stop crying hysterically for help and you deperately looking on your phone find someone to talk to but all you only find yourself crying alone in darkness...

That's when you find that you are going crazy! 

Be patience with me and understand my flaws.. Know that I'm trying so hard to be a better person.

Please don't neglect me.

Please don't push me away.

Please don't forget me.

I do need you as I am all alone.

I don't want to always be fighting on the losing end

I can't stand myself...

I hate it everyday...

I just want to disappear

The constant fear of being replace....

Have you ever wake up scare feeling like your heart is in your mouth and you feel that nothing is okay? Your heart keep aching and you are trembling in fear for hours in bed cause you can't find a relief? 

That's what anxiety do to you... 

It makes you wanna end your life cause there is nothing good but constant fear and paranoia 

I don't wear seat belts, I walk across the road with my mind messed up...

I secretly hope I got into an accident and die

I've a death wish

Is it weird to say I can't wait to get laid tomorrow?

Fuck... I just want you so much :(

Two days without food and I'm not hungry...

I'm sad...

It's not what I wanted but do I have any other choice cause I don't wanna lose you :( 

Please end this misery

Please take my life and the pain with it

What is this? When you feel so hurt you feel like crying but no tears comes out...