Nope not gottna happen...

Predictable... As always without fail... *sigh

Friday is near

What will it be lies in front of us after friday?

Will there be happiness or sorrow?

Lifehouse - Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

It's just lies...

We're not doing any good lately... As whatever he says just become a lie... and never fail to hurt me... Even simple things he says will become a lie... Will I even survives till friday... It's too much.. I never met a person who lie so much... Everything is so different now.. he wont even call or msg anymore...

guess that pretty much shows.....

I wish to overcome...

Having all the break ups and terrible things that happen to me in the past took great influence of me. Sadly it led me to paranoid. Ever since my last relationship, I'm so afraid to fall in love again...I'm afraid my past repeats on me, to get hurt or having bad days due to argument and quarrels..

I'm not sure if I could be a good girlfriend anymore as I found myself being jealous and suspicious all the time.. always feeling insecure and lag of trust.. loads of negative things in my mind and I hated it.. It's way too unfair for my future partner to suffer all these shit from me due to my horrible experiences.. I feel really bad for them..

I wish one day I can overcome all these nonsense and hoping I'll always remind myself to give them a chance when my nonsense trigger..

Sigh...

Andrew says,

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

Thanks Andrew, for being there for me during my hard times =)

克萊尔 ♥ 拉菲

好想你喔~ X)

So Disappointed...

Today is just filled with disappointment one after another... so bad...

I never been so disappointed with someone... I was so mad... I can't trust you anymore... I'm sick of your nonsense... your empty hopes and promises... I don't even know the things you told me were ever real anymore... I'm tired... I'm tired of waiting... tired of being in this position... tired of being neglected... tired of being your substitution... tired of expressing myself...

I'm lost... confused... I've nothing left to say anymore... There's nothing for me in the very beginning... You were never there for me...

Is this the person I wanted to be with anymore...

I don't know...

I'll never be a day at ease as long your still stuck with her... It hurts...Everyday single day... Only to make me realize and feel like shit when you talk about her...

I don't know... If I should carry on... I've already lose my trust on you...

Please, let my faith be worthwhile...

It still hurts this very moment and It will never stop till it's all solved...

I maybe mad at you and ignore you............ But I still care for you.....

I miss you.............