I feel like a criminal.. whose accused for something i'm not.. and I'm tainted for life..

I feel like a victim.. helpless and no way of fighting back.. I felt useless cause there's no way for fighting back.. this is not me at all...

I don't know what to do but I feel sad and helpless.. I could only so forget about it..as I've no rights at all.. im in no position.. I'm just like an item..

I am threaten..

I'm confuse...

I guess I really don't deserve anything good in my life.. their all taken away from me..

every single thing..

I've admit the fact...

I'll let it defeat me for I could no longer fight... and I'll tell myself.. I've tried...

I'm scare....

There is a reason why I look forward for you coming back home to the UK.

It's so that we could have more time to chat with each other again.. having things going back to how it used to be....

It only the second day.. same thing... you said to be home by 2am but I waited till now 730am... your still not online.. I called you twice at home...

looks like your not coming online today anymore...

I'm really tired of all these..........you doesn't seems to repeat me at all with your words neither did you bother trying to get to me and tell me anything....

Dont know when will i eventually give up..... but I'm trying very strongly not to....