I feel horrible...........

I Miss You badly..................

Think of me always...

The worst fall yet...

My leg has never been so fucked up before...

Fell from Segway today while going downslope...

After the fall I was still determine to continue back to Wavehouse to pass on the keys... I feel pretty fucked up now cause I was told that I'll need to take my toenail off...

freakkkkinggg scaryyyyyyy o.O''

Family...

I don't want to have a family like this... I wish I could runaway...

如果他喜欢我...我也很喜欢他...为什么我还是一个人...

Nope not gottna happen...

Predictable... As always without fail... *sigh

Friday is near

What will it be lies in front of us after friday?

Will there be happiness or sorrow?

Lifehouse - Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

It's just lies...

We're not doing any good lately... As whatever he says just become a lie... and never fail to hurt me... Even simple things he says will become a lie... Will I even survives till friday... It's too much.. I never met a person who lie so much... Everything is so different now.. he wont even call or msg anymore...

guess that pretty much shows.....

I wish to overcome...

Having all the break ups and terrible things that happen to me in the past took great influence of me. Sadly it led me to paranoid. Ever since my last relationship, I'm so afraid to fall in love again...I'm afraid my past repeats on me, to get hurt or having bad days due to argument and quarrels..

I'm not sure if I could be a good girlfriend anymore as I found myself being jealous and suspicious all the time.. always feeling insecure and lag of trust.. loads of negative things in my mind and I hated it.. It's way too unfair for my future partner to suffer all these shit from me due to my horrible experiences.. I feel really bad for them..

I wish one day I can overcome all these nonsense and hoping I'll always remind myself to give them a chance when my nonsense trigger..

Sigh...