I hurt myself again... I can't help it.. I was panicking I was afraid.. I can't stop being scare .. I have to do it.. I can't get hold of anyone to speak of, I have to do it to stop myself from panicking to wake myself the fuck up and stop this hysteria.
Now is just gulit.. I can't let him know I can't let anyone know I did this.. But it's my only way to escape my own way to stop the episode... Please forgive me...
Forgive me for being such failure...
