I'm just too lazy to blog...

I'm finally home from my long trip.. So much fun & incidents hurhur..

Ahh.. I'm so lazy to blog about all of it now.. I feel like crashing.. ahhh..

Till next time when I've time I'll blog about it..=)

oh was ist denn hier los!
Ein Toc-Toc hat sich in den Blog gehackt und kann nun hier schreiben was auch immer er schreiben möchte =X. Aber viel habe ich nicht zu erzählen, schließlich steht ja schon alles auf meinem Blog x). Die Kleine hier hinter mir ist aber eine ganz Süße und Liebe x) *schleim*. Kommt selten vor das ich so viel Spaß habe, dass mir selbst HoJ abends egal ist und ich lieber was anderes mache =P. Normalerweise habe ich die Webcam abends an, nun brauch ich es nicht mehr x). Claire hab dich ganz dolle lieb und das weißt du auch xP. Werd dich auch nicht mehr gehen lassen x).

-Wally

Guess where I'm heading next?

Frankfurt ;)

Yupp.. Updating now from JFK's lounge.. waiting for the flight at 9pm.. sucks XD

I can't wait till I reach Frankfurt to take the ICE3 Train to Düsseldorf..

Christmas will be great this year! woot!

Hey.. You know I'm missing you right now..*

Let it snow~!

I woke up today & I saw...

How can I resist going out to play?!! XD

He ate my heart*

"He downed the whole thing..In one efficient gulp.. Like a beautiful monster.."

I haz my hair ash brown

Finally I've finish my shopping list.. I've been buying loads of gifts for my friends and family recently.. Now it's all done~ phew..

Today I went to the mall to dye my hair.. and I love it ;)

Cant't really see the color as it's night time..

I can haz new shades~

SAW VI is AWESOME!!!

I've just finally finish watching SAW VI. Man! I love it! It ain't disappointing like the previous series at all & my favorite Reverse bear trap is back! Will Det.Hoffman live? His one smart ass for sure..

Can't wait for the SAW VII to come next year! woot!

I've recently also completed SAW the game! The game is very nice just like the movie and you get to choose your ending for 'Freedom' or 'Truth'

Guess I'm pretty much a SAW fan after all! Not as hardcore as you thou,Stefan ;P

So much misery..

I've lost myself.. from a person whose so much cheerful, talkative, curiosity turns into loneliness, misery and sorrow..growing quiet everyday and nothing seems to bother anymore.. I'm trying to find out what happen and where have she gone to.. will I ever find her back...

I've affected all my friends of what I've came to be.. It's crazy....

What happen to me..

It's been my 3rd day here in the States.. Indeed it's really cold.. It goes below 5 degrees at night..

Somehow.. during these three days.. I kept thinking of him.. what's wrong with me.. I suppose to get over things... I wanna feel better.. but I just miss him so much.. I couldn't help it...

I cried for the 2nd night...

Jet-lagged

I've finally arrived!! OMG! Freaking 30hrs to travel.. I'm so tired =((

SIN>FRA>JFK>PIT

First experience of flying is like flying in the game 'Battlefield' ! Woot! Taking off is fun! Sadly landing sucks =( makes me feel sick..must be the pilot lousy lols! The plane actually went free fall for 2secs.. After which I was officially sick XDD It's colddd here but is bearable just that it's windy.. I'm still very stone and tired from traveling for such long hours.. Will adapt to it soon as I'll be here for 3weeks..

Now I'm done bathing and getting myself comfortable in front of the fireplace..

Shopping spree tmr!!!!

Flying off to United States.

I'll be away from Singapore from 25th November - 22nd December.

Just finish checking in online. I will still update my blog during my trip.

See you guys again when I'm back ;)

I missed him...

I was up very early yesterday and didn't sleep well the day before..So I've decided to sleep earlier at 10pm.. When I woke up today I found out that he drop by my place yesterday and my phone was silent so I didn't know he came..

So upset.... I missed the last time I might have to see him before I go... He message me he will call me today but I guess it's not gotta happen as usual..

Guess I've to visit him myself before the day I go...

I was a fool...

I was con by my on colleague... I dare not believe such things will happen to me again... I'm so disappointed.. What's the point of lying over little things...

Sigh.. I never thought this would happen to me.. omg.. it reminds me of my past........ no....

What lies ahead?

I told him last night will he forget me when I went for my trip... He told me that what I think? I insist that I don't know and that's a question been bothering me for quite awhile..He said," No."

He did ask me some questions to ensure.. It's funny that when I mention twice, "Why you care?" He just say shut up and smile. *giggles* so cute..

He kept mentioning bout my departure which is on 25th to the States, asking me what time I'll be leaving home. I ask him will he be there.. He said he can't say about it cause I put hopes on it,things will happen.. which is rather true...

But he assure that he'll see me again before the 25th.. I'm very pleased =)

Hmmm.. even though whenever he drops by an hour a week, I've cherish all the time we been together.. lots of memories we missed.. sadly he doesn't want to open up his feelings towards me and always left me wondering...

Well one thing he used to complain wanting to get an iphone but I always told him to wait till the end of the year.. the reason behind all this is that I planned to give him one as a Christmas present.. But now his gf has already got him one... sigh.. oh well...he didn't know his one lucky ass guy...

I guess... This trip really comes in the right time.. and long enough to get things over with...

Missing out the fun...

I hope you guys had fun in the gathering today..I miss you guys a lot especially him..Do hope to see you guys again sometime soon =)

1.o.v.E

I failed...

I'm still miss him badly.....

feel so horrible......

Guess I've to force myself to move on...

I've enough of sobbing... tired of having myself empty hopes... dreaming that he will come back...

Now I've took the first step... I don't wish to do this... and I'm not a person who easily give up.................

but I know it's the best for me......... Cause It's all too painful to live in.....................

Please... just let me forget everything.........

Ich Vermisse dich; 我很想你

你 在那裡 這些年來如意不如意
Ni zai na li zhe xie nian lai ru yi bu ru yi
Where are you, how are you these years

還快樂 還單純 還美麗 時光如何對你
Hai kuai le hai dan chun hai mei li shi guang ru he dui ni
Still happy, simple, pretty, how was the life towards u

我 在這裡 人海中一座島嶼
Wo zai zhe li ren hai zhong yi dao yu
I'm here, among the people's island

很平靜 風平浪靜
Hen ping jing feng ping lang jing
Very quiet, calm and tranquil

只除了深夜裡 回憶會瘋狂來襲
Zhe chu le shen ye li hui yi hui feng kuang lai xi
except at nite, the memory goes insane

我很想你 你知道嗎
Wo hen xiang ni ni zhe dao ma
I miss u so much, do u know that

如果可以 就讓我再見你
Ru guo ke yi jiu rang wo zai jian ni
If can, let me to meet u again

美好微笑 清澈眼睛
Mei hao wei xiao qing che yan jing
Nice smile, clear eyes

好確定那場分離只毀了我一個而已
Hao que ding na chang fen li zhi hui le wo yi ge er yi
Very confirm that break up just destroy me alone

我很想你 聽見了嗎 woo...
Wo hen xiang ni ting jian le ma woo...
I miss u badly, do u hear that woo..

這是唯一 我無解的困境
Zhe shi wei yi wo wu jie de kun jing
This is the only one question that i cant solve

那些過去 不肯過去
Na xie guo qu bu ken guo qu
Those past, dont want to be past

不管我後來遇見多少人
Bu guan wo hou lai yu jian duo shao ren
NO matter how many person that i meet in future

只能歎息 都不是你
Zhi neng tan xi dou bu shi ni
I Only sigh, because none of them is you

我 在那裡 你會不會偶爾好奇
Wo zai na li ni hui bu hui ou er hao qi
Where am i, will you curious

有沒有 曾經懷疑
You mei you cheng jing huai yi
Do you ever doubt

我說我會忘記 只是種好意
WO shuo wo hui wang ji zhi shi zhong hao yi
I said i will forget, just only for our good

都不是你 我只想愛你
Dou bu shi ni wo zhi xiang ai ni
That is not you, I just want to love you.

I finally see him again...

It's been almost a week since we lost contact and that was one of the worst week of my life.. His constantly on my mind and everywhere I go always seem to have something that reminds me of him..I feel horrible.. I've tried to move on and there's always something that holds me back... and it's faith..

Every night when I lie on my bed.. I'll hear the exhaust of somehow like his bike and I tell myself how I wish it was him.. I was lying on my bed yesterday and I heard the exhaust again.. I never fail to start empty dream that that was him.. moment later... He CALLED!!! I'm like OMGZ OMGZ!

He told me his outside my house and he would like to see me.. I was so nervous throughout I didn't expect it and was totally in the state of shock.. My hands sweats like mad whenever I get nervous... I kept smiling as I'm so happy I could see him again.. He ask if we can still hug and I totally agree as that's what I've been dreaming for all along... and we had the longest hug ever and I was so happy I felt like crying but I know he will be checking me if I cry so I hold back..

Throughout the time he didn't talk much thou.. I wish his okay..... I'm happy that he wore back his black spec too.. it really looks much nicer on him than the red one as it's pretty ugly =x

I wish to tell him how have I been and how terrible my week is but I was all nervous and happy I didn't know what to say...

I really hope we wont stop contacting each other...

Think of me always...

I feel horrible...........

I Miss You badly..................

Think of me always...

The worst fall yet...

My leg has never been so fucked up before...

Fell from Segway today while going downslope...

After the fall I was still determine to continue back to Wavehouse to pass on the keys... I feel pretty fucked up now cause I was told that I'll need to take my toenail off...

freakkkkinggg scaryyyyyyy o.O''

Family...

I don't want to have a family like this... I wish I could runaway...

如果他喜欢我...我也很喜欢他...为什么我还是一个人...

Nope not gottna happen...

Predictable... As always without fail... *sigh

Friday is near

What will it be lies in front of us after friday?

Will there be happiness or sorrow?

Lifehouse - Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

It's just lies...

We're not doing any good lately... As whatever he says just become a lie... and never fail to hurt me... Even simple things he says will become a lie... Will I even survives till friday... It's too much.. I never met a person who lie so much... Everything is so different now.. he wont even call or msg anymore...

guess that pretty much shows.....

I wish to overcome...

Having all the break ups and terrible things that happen to me in the past took great influence of me. Sadly it led me to paranoid. Ever since my last relationship, I'm so afraid to fall in love again...I'm afraid my past repeats on me, to get hurt or having bad days due to argument and quarrels..

I'm not sure if I could be a good girlfriend anymore as I found myself being jealous and suspicious all the time.. always feeling insecure and lag of trust.. loads of negative things in my mind and I hated it.. It's way too unfair for my future partner to suffer all these shit from me due to my horrible experiences.. I feel really bad for them..

I wish one day I can overcome all these nonsense and hoping I'll always remind myself to give them a chance when my nonsense trigger..

Sigh...

Andrew says,

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

Thanks Andrew, for being there for me during my hard times =)

克萊尔 ♥ 拉菲

好想你喔~ X)

So Disappointed...

Today is just filled with disappointment one after another... so bad...

I never been so disappointed with someone... I was so mad... I can't trust you anymore... I'm sick of your nonsense... your empty hopes and promises... I don't even know the things you told me were ever real anymore... I'm tired... I'm tired of waiting... tired of being in this position... tired of being neglected... tired of being your substitution... tired of expressing myself...

I'm lost... confused... I've nothing left to say anymore... There's nothing for me in the very beginning... You were never there for me...

Is this the person I wanted to be with anymore...

I don't know...

I'll never be a day at ease as long your still stuck with her... It hurts...Everyday single day... Only to make me realize and feel like shit when you talk about her...

I don't know... If I should carry on... I've already lose my trust on you...

Please, let my faith be worthwhile...

It still hurts this very moment and It will never stop till it's all solved...

I maybe mad at you and ignore you............ But I still care for you.....

I miss you.............

I Miss Him...

I really wish he could be there for me when I need to talk to him....Like now...

I hated it...and I feel like shit...cause I wanna see him...

I could only abide to " Good things have to wait" T-T

BUT I HATE WAITING...............

Really looking forward to all the things we've planned but the waiting just sucks...

Hope this waiting wont last forever...

We will go through this human obstacles right?

Danial's 22nd Birthday

It was all fun and laughters.. Really enjoyed it alot especially with him around ^^ It's awesome to celebrate with so many friends whose almost my ex colleagues. I love them!! ^^

ONE LOVE~!

<3

My first time on shisha XDD

Awesome ice cream cake ;P

Funny Iraq Interview.

Funny as hell XD

I Miss Segway.

Due to my busy schedule having to handle two jobs and studies at the same time.I no longer be able to work for Segway Sentosa =(

I made alot of friends and also someone I like there, I really enjoyed working with them. Ever since there's a new management taking over we're no longer as happy working there. But I love working there for the friends instead of the work itself. I've never had a job I enjoyed so happily with my colleagues.I really wish I could continue working with them =(

I miss you guys loads T-T Really can't bare to leave... You people are the best X)

and I'd promise to visit you guys as often as I could!

I miss Suhaimi

I miss Mas

I miss Clare

I miss Syikin

I miss Alex aka Iskandar

I miss Andrew

and....

I MISS

Ruff

Danial

Hazrul

Faruq

Taufiq

Herzy

Raihan

Zaid

Alen

Zul

Working in St Regis.

St Regis is one of the six stars hotel I've ever dream to work in my life.I can't believe I manage to grab a position as a Butler coordinator there with the help of my cousin. The uniform for Butlers in St Regis is damn the nicest and stylist of them all! You totally feel different once you suit up and step out.

Sadly working as a Butler coordinator you work in the basement of the hotel and you don't get to meet guest as much. I've got real irritated by the fact that I'm always at the basement and I feel really sleepy being there. I've found out that working in the tourism sector is more fun and flexible whereby being in the hotel sector is really strict and serious.I hope I'll find where I belong to in the future =(

Lucky! My cousin is currently trying to push me up to front office which I've always wanted. I've already met and being interviewed by the Front office Manager & Floor Chief. Hopefully I'll be able to get in to front office real soon!! Wait for my good news! ^^

My falls @ Segway..

Shit man..I fell twice!Two days in a row...I no longer holds the record of not falling from the Segway *sobs sobs*

Day 1: 14th August 2009, Friday, 10:15am

First customer of the day..My supervisor ask me to help out in the training ground.I was rammed by the customer with a Segway..I fell on my butt and my whole leg was under the Segway with the customer on it.The worst part is...the customer is 3x my size! Here's the photo of my leg cause by this incident...hmmm can't really see the blue-blacks from this photo..

I was told by my college Clare that lucky my legs are small if not I can't even imagine how bad its gottna be lols..

Day 2: 15th August 2009, Saturday, 9:35pm

I joined the last Eco tour of the day with another college and 3 other customers from Ukraine.Everything went fine and smoothly until bang! One of the customer fall in front of me..and suddenly another Bang!This time...It's me -.- Freak! Apparently both the customer's Segway and mine hit on the infamous "Log" and lost control.I fell on my butt...AGAIN!!So freaking painful this time and I got an abrasion on my left foot from it =(( Photo of the foot...Hehe lucky no blood or anything..

I believe it's so natural that you CONFIRM will fall at least once working in Segway.Lucky my injuries ain't that bad..

I haz New Spectacle!!

Yay~Finally bought a spectacle that looks nice to wear out with..

Hahaa I had dinner with my colleges today at Plaza Singapura.We also watched "UP" and it was a really cute movie!!But before that I drop by at work to meet up with one of my colleges first.I was there early so I went out for one of the Eco tour instead *ahem..as one of the instructor* X) Thank you Hazrul for taking these wonderful pictures~!