Ive been feeling so cold from society lately...

Feel like a total outcast...

Things ain't well with Iain either... I thought he was still fond of me or things between us got better.. Guess i was wrong and just lying to myself that things were good again..

Saddens me all the time to hear him being mad and that he couldn't careless or care bout me..
It breaks my heart and feel how tired am I trying for this friendship/relationship but it will never seems to be better...

Everyday is just being stress and people nagging at me ....
It's never one day I was actually happy.. It's kinda getting harder and harder to handle... Just so cold....

I don't know why everyone is just mad at me lately for no fucking reason...

I don't know what's going on and I feel like shit......

Im fucking pissed with everything's going!! Fucking hate everyone!!!

Especially you Iain! Your constantly never ending angry spree on me! Im so fucking sick of everything and everyone cause no body gives a shit and family just pushing chores to me and blame me for every single thing..

Iain you know you mean the whole to me.. and the only person now I've could be with comfortably and talk things about... You just constantly turn your back on me.... Maybe you are better off without me... Maybe im just a burden a cancer cell or a black sheep..I don't care...
All I know is I still care a lot about you and I still wanna see you again in the future..every I'm still look forward to speak with you like its a daily routine....

I miss you a lot...