every night i wake up... I felt extremely lonely when i night wind blows...

einsam ohne dich..

so allein will ich nicht sein...

mein herz brennt...

'Once upon a December' ' Together in Paris'

*sigh

never gotta happen..........

i can't breath...

feel like vomiting...

Merry Christmas

probably the worst christmas ever experience...

neither did santa wanna fulfill my wish but instead of someone's else...

i dont deserve all these...

i give up...

i'm sincere and i'm desperate...

...is this the end?

when i took up the courage to talk to you... you were just silents...

*fail*

sometimes i'm so eager to text you... but i'm scared...

i miss you so bad...

People think I'm crazy because I have a different life from anyone else.. and that I think different about life differently from anyone else.. I always have to hide my feelings to everything and showing that i'm okay when i'm really not.. If i don't people will dislike it and probably be mad at me and eventually leaves me.. friends doesn't exists in my life.. their all too busy for me.. no one talks to me or ask me out...

I really don't have anyone to be honest.. and I'm so sick of living like this..

Recently I've lost so much things in my life.. I lost my grandpa,my job,my regular sleeping timing,my health, my trip and someone i love.. this is probably the worst event of things that ever happen in my entire life..

Everyday i wake up.. i've no one to talk to anymore..i feel the whole world is isolating around me and i feel so lost..

from everyday waking up and staying up late having someone to talk to.. having something to look forward to is now gone..

i just don't know what to do anymore..everyday i dreamt about you.. everything seems to reminds me of you..

and i miss you........ I wish you could come back...

I find it hard to blog here. Cause apparently whatever i might write here magically become rumor in someone's school which will hurt someone and eventually hurt me.

Now I can't even blog even thou I really feel like it. What on earth is this about...

I don't know I felt that I've lost my privacy in blogging with jealous bad mouthing childish no life naive people with no sense of maturity

FUCK

Can't believe its happening to me again.. why...

I hate it.. definitely the wrong timing......

Christmas list & Black Ops

wow, never had such a long list of gifts in my life o.O

thank god its under control :)

Created new emblem for black ops!

Lates*t

3 more lvl to prestige!

*my blog entry is dumb

its alive...

whose ready for an unpleasant surprise

this year not everyone's wish is coming true ;)