People think I'm crazy because I have a different life from anyone else.. and that I think different about life differently from anyone else.. I always have to hide my feelings to everything and showing that i'm okay when i'm really not.. If i don't people will dislike it and probably be mad at me and eventually leaves me.. friends doesn't exists in my life.. their all too busy for me.. no one talks to me or ask me out...

I really don't have anyone to be honest.. and I'm so sick of living like this..

Recently I've lost so much things in my life.. I lost my grandpa,my job,my regular sleeping timing,my health, my trip and someone i love.. this is probably the worst event of things that ever happen in my entire life..

Everyday i wake up.. i've no one to talk to anymore..i feel the whole world is isolating around me and i feel so lost..

from everyday waking up and staying up late having someone to talk to.. having something to look forward to is now gone..

i just don't know what to do anymore..everyday i dreamt about you.. everything seems to reminds me of you..

and i miss you........ I wish you could come back...