Thursday, February 27, 2014

Say Something...

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere, I would have followed you
Oh-oh-oh-oh say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something































"When your having trouble in a relationship and you know that things are coming to an end but you want so badly to hang and make it work. You want to be “the one” for them but only if they want to accept you as theirs. You will do anything for them, follow them wherever they go but they wont do the same. You feel like you’re the only one in the relationship trying to make it work. It seems like the other person has no hope but you want them to say something, anything to make you stay and keep on fighting. All these overwhelming feelings make you feel so small. Going into the relationship you didn’t know what you were getting your self into. You have never loved like this before, there are going to be obstacles, you will stumble and fall but you will learn and keep going. After all the pleading and asking them to stay you just cant keep going, you are finally giving up, you are sorry that you couldn’t get them to stay. I love you but I need to swallow my pride, accept defeat, and say goodbye."

Friday, February 7, 2014

Everyone is definitely happier without me...

I'm just a fucking disease...

Thursday, February 6, 2014

I miss you James

I'm scared..

I'm scare to say the wrong things but yet I want you so much...

I'm scare you be mad at me and won't speak to me again...

I'm scare you are talking to other girls...

I'm scare you don't love me...

I'm scare I don't know where I stand and I feel so alone...

I want you... I want all of you...

I don't want to be just a girl who speak to you at night before you sleep...

I want to be the girl you once ever wanted... The most special and important girl in your life...

I'm really depress and alone...

I don't know what to do...

Monday, February 3, 2014

Could we ever be how we used to be? 

Friday, January 31, 2014

It's chinese new year again...

I was never happy... during chinese new year... especially not this year...

My family is still accusing my of stealing money when I've been staying at home since I got back.. I've to call in sick for work cause I've no money for work.. I only got to go to work yesterday from the money my brother give me each time he borrows my iPad.

My mum ask me if i took money from the cat coin bank, the thing is I don't even know there was money in there in the beginning ! My mum asked my brother and he say NO! I've $10 taken from me and I didn't even say anything... So as obvious as it seems if i would've taken the money I won't be eat instant noodles everyday at home with water....

I can't stand this household... I can't stand everyone is treating me this way!

I don't even know what I'm going to say when my relative ask about my trip about james.... I just wish I don't break down on the spot....

seriously.... I wish to be dead....

every night when I go to sleep I ask myself If I die in my sleep will I be sad ?

the answer is always.......no
James...

Of all these time we've gone through together... and the things I've ever done for you but never anyone else...

This is what I get...

You ignore my calls... and decline them...

You don't reply my messages...when you said you will message me...

You left me hanging here... Not knowing where I stand...

I never got a proper answer... I never have a explanation...

I was never told what was going on...

Is this what I deserve... ?

Thursday, January 30, 2014

I wake up scare every night knowing that you ignore me...

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart.
And killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a fire.
As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!