"I just don't love you anymore"

Why am i always facing this sentence all the time...
Every single day i tried to mend everything back and pray for you..Hoping things will turn better...
Does God really exist? Does He really there to hold me?I seems to be falling all the time...and i fell hard...Sometimes I think His a saddist..Who enjoy seeing people in pain...Why is everything so hard to ask for...?
There's too much for me to miss...Your so dear to me...Im tired of losing everyone i loved...So tired.........
If God could hear me...while i would like to say...
"STOP TAKING EVERYONE I LOVE ALWAY FROM ME!!!"

P.S I really wish we would be more than friends...