What happen to me..

It's been my 3rd day here in the States.. Indeed it's really cold.. It goes below 5 degrees at night..

Somehow.. during these three days.. I kept thinking of him.. what's wrong with me.. I suppose to get over things... I wanna feel better.. but I just miss him so much.. I couldn't help it...

I cried for the 2nd night...

Jet-lagged

I've finally arrived!! OMG! Freaking 30hrs to travel.. I'm so tired =((

SIN>FRA>JFK>PIT

First experience of flying is like flying in the game 'Battlefield' ! Woot! Taking off is fun! Sadly landing sucks =( makes me feel sick..must be the pilot lousy lols! The plane actually went free fall for 2secs.. After which I was officially sick XDD It's colddd here but is bearable just that it's windy.. I'm still very stone and tired from traveling for such long hours.. Will adapt to it soon as I'll be here for 3weeks..

Now I'm done bathing and getting myself comfortable in front of the fireplace..

Shopping spree tmr!!!!

Flying off to United States.

I'll be away from Singapore from 25th November - 22nd December.

Just finish checking in online. I will still update my blog during my trip.

See you guys again when I'm back ;)

I missed him...

I was up very early yesterday and didn't sleep well the day before..So I've decided to sleep earlier at 10pm.. When I woke up today I found out that he drop by my place yesterday and my phone was silent so I didn't know he came..

So upset.... I missed the last time I might have to see him before I go... He message me he will call me today but I guess it's not gotta happen as usual..

Guess I've to visit him myself before the day I go...

I was a fool...

I was con by my on colleague... I dare not believe such things will happen to me again... I'm so disappointed.. What's the point of lying over little things...

Sigh.. I never thought this would happen to me.. omg.. it reminds me of my past........ no....

What lies ahead?

I told him last night will he forget me when I went for my trip... He told me that what I think? I insist that I don't know and that's a question been bothering me for quite awhile..He said," No."

He did ask me some questions to ensure.. It's funny that when I mention twice, "Why you care?" He just say shut up and smile. *giggles* so cute..

He kept mentioning bout my departure which is on 25th to the States, asking me what time I'll be leaving home. I ask him will he be there.. He said he can't say about it cause I put hopes on it,things will happen.. which is rather true...

But he assure that he'll see me again before the 25th.. I'm very pleased =)

Hmmm.. even though whenever he drops by an hour a week, I've cherish all the time we been together.. lots of memories we missed.. sadly he doesn't want to open up his feelings towards me and always left me wondering...

Well one thing he used to complain wanting to get an iphone but I always told him to wait till the end of the year.. the reason behind all this is that I planned to give him one as a Christmas present.. But now his gf has already got him one... sigh.. oh well...he didn't know his one lucky ass guy...

I guess... This trip really comes in the right time.. and long enough to get things over with...

Missing out the fun...

I hope you guys had fun in the gathering today..I miss you guys a lot especially him..Do hope to see you guys again sometime soon =)

1.o.v.E

I failed...

I'm still miss him badly.....

feel so horrible......

Guess I've to force myself to move on...

I've enough of sobbing... tired of having myself empty hopes... dreaming that he will come back...

Now I've took the first step... I don't wish to do this... and I'm not a person who easily give up.................

but I know it's the best for me......... Cause It's all too painful to live in.....................

Please... just let me forget everything.........

Ich Vermisse dich; 我很想你

你 在那裡 這些年來如意不如意
Ni zai na li zhe xie nian lai ru yi bu ru yi
Where are you, how are you these years

還快樂 還單純 還美麗 時光如何對你
Hai kuai le hai dan chun hai mei li shi guang ru he dui ni
Still happy, simple, pretty, how was the life towards u

我 在這裡 人海中一座島嶼
Wo zai zhe li ren hai zhong yi dao yu
I'm here, among the people's island

很平靜 風平浪靜
Hen ping jing feng ping lang jing
Very quiet, calm and tranquil

只除了深夜裡 回憶會瘋狂來襲
Zhe chu le shen ye li hui yi hui feng kuang lai xi
except at nite, the memory goes insane

我很想你 你知道嗎
Wo hen xiang ni ni zhe dao ma
I miss u so much, do u know that

如果可以 就讓我再見你
Ru guo ke yi jiu rang wo zai jian ni
If can, let me to meet u again

美好微笑 清澈眼睛
Mei hao wei xiao qing che yan jing
Nice smile, clear eyes

好確定那場分離只毀了我一個而已
Hao que ding na chang fen li zhi hui le wo yi ge er yi
Very confirm that break up just destroy me alone

我很想你 聽見了嗎 woo...
Wo hen xiang ni ting jian le ma woo...
I miss u badly, do u hear that woo..

這是唯一 我無解的困境
Zhe shi wei yi wo wu jie de kun jing
This is the only one question that i cant solve

那些過去 不肯過去
Na xie guo qu bu ken guo qu
Those past, dont want to be past

不管我後來遇見多少人
Bu guan wo hou lai yu jian duo shao ren
NO matter how many person that i meet in future

只能歎息 都不是你
Zhi neng tan xi dou bu shi ni
I Only sigh, because none of them is you

我 在那裡 你會不會偶爾好奇
Wo zai na li ni hui bu hui ou er hao qi
Where am i, will you curious

有沒有 曾經懷疑
You mei you cheng jing huai yi
Do you ever doubt

我說我會忘記 只是種好意
WO shuo wo hui wang ji zhi shi zhong hao yi
I said i will forget, just only for our good

都不是你 我只想愛你
Dou bu shi ni wo zhi xiang ai ni
That is not you, I just want to love you.

I finally see him again...

It's been almost a week since we lost contact and that was one of the worst week of my life.. His constantly on my mind and everywhere I go always seem to have something that reminds me of him..I feel horrible.. I've tried to move on and there's always something that holds me back... and it's faith..

Every night when I lie on my bed.. I'll hear the exhaust of somehow like his bike and I tell myself how I wish it was him.. I was lying on my bed yesterday and I heard the exhaust again.. I never fail to start empty dream that that was him.. moment later... He CALLED!!! I'm like OMGZ OMGZ!

He told me his outside my house and he would like to see me.. I was so nervous throughout I didn't expect it and was totally in the state of shock.. My hands sweats like mad whenever I get nervous... I kept smiling as I'm so happy I could see him again.. He ask if we can still hug and I totally agree as that's what I've been dreaming for all along... and we had the longest hug ever and I was so happy I felt like crying but I know he will be checking me if I cry so I hold back..

Throughout the time he didn't talk much thou.. I wish his okay..... I'm happy that he wore back his black spec too.. it really looks much nicer on him than the red one as it's pretty ugly =x

I wish to tell him how have I been and how terrible my week is but I was all nervous and happy I didn't know what to say...

I really hope we wont stop contacting each other...

Think of me always...