He still does know how much he means to me... I'm broken beyond words.

Whenever his mad he would shout at me and swear at me as if everything was my fault... I just want to start a conversation and chat but it seems like I'm in his way.......

I don't know how long till I'll ever speak to him again....... just so heartbroken.. From the moment I woke up today.. I wish you were here........ I miss you

Last year of these days... I was so much happier...

Happier to have you around.. Happy to go to work can looking forward to see you...

Now that even its the same job as before. I hated it.. I hated every moment I've to think about it..

Lying in my empty bed.. Missing you..

Thinking of how would it be like if we ever meet again..

Will you continue to hold my hand?
Will you ever feel the same way for me again :(

will you still continue to give me that chance?

guess I've to sleep with this question tonight :'(

Every night when I think about you and cry in my bed...

I wish you would hug me from the front and kiss me on my forehead saying everything is ok...

Cause I miss you so...

Really really not been easy lately...

Just feel very difficult... Did he really love me still...? Did he really miss me..?

So scare and lonely... Wish whatever he said was true... I want to see him again so much.... It's breaks my heart knowing his back on dating site looking for girls again.............

Today I realise I never been so afraid of the crowd.. I literally had episodes of mini panic attack.. Hands swearing trying to squeeze my arm constantly.....couldnt think straight nor just trying to catch my breath ....

Just thinking of you.......

It just can't get any worst...

Recently Iain has been all paranoid and anger at me... I don't know what happen..
I thought I was looking forward to speak with him again when I bought him a headphone... Yesterday he got mad at me for lying which it doesn't happen in the first place.. Now today he just delete me off his Skype and Facebook... Really....?
In the beginning I thought we were friends... Even though it's hard already for me for us to be just friends... Now he choose to delete me away... He wants to forget me..........

Not so good lately...

I find the more I'm around people the more lonely I felt... I cried in the train home.. I felt so sad and lonely about everything.. I just wish things would be better again... I can't bring myself up just feel like a walking zombie.. Making myself forget everything temporary while I'm at work and everything hits me when I'm off work.. I miss you :(