Really really not been easy lately...

Just feel very difficult... Did he really love me still...? Did he really miss me..?

So scare and lonely... Wish whatever he said was true... I want to see him again so much.... It's breaks my heart knowing his back on dating site looking for girls again.............

Today I realise I never been so afraid of the crowd.. I literally had episodes of mini panic attack.. Hands swearing trying to squeeze my arm constantly.....couldnt think straight nor just trying to catch my breath ....

Just thinking of you.......