When you feel like you lost everyone you love...

this maybe one of the worst feeling ever...................

feel so unwanted..............................

Not so good time..

As I thought I've finally waited for what I've wanted... Things go back to the same like old time..

worst though.. I'm so tired.........

GERMANY LOST.... NO....

My Series of Unfortunate Events, 4th July

- Late for work.

- Took a cab that cost $15/- only to know I am as late as taking train.

- Lost my iPhone volume button.

- Overheard a consideration of terminating me.

FML.

I can haz new long hair~

I just wish to feel better now...

Ever since I last broke up with my ex bf 3 years ago.. I never had a decent relationship.. was heartbroken and used by all the people around me... I found myself growing quiet.. swallowing the loneliness.. I wasn't easy the past weeks that a lot of things had happen.. I turned misery and unsure.. I'm not myself anymore...

I can't hold myself up... neither I can trust anyone anymore.. everyone just keep lying to me thinking that I didn't know anything.....

No one seems to understand my situation... needless to say if there even is anyone..

Please let things be good again... Never been really happy since the past years... things just get worsen...

Whoever 'God' is.. if you wanna torture me like this for so many years... why not just take my life... I'm tired... I hate pretending...

I can't stand this loneliness... I'm desperate for attention...company...

What happen.....

Why do I deserve all this nonsense......

Early in the morning I receive a call ask me who am I... I was thinking.. Fuck it.. if you don't know who I am why call me..

Afterwards I've been flooded with messages saying that I'm a slut and that I've no guts just because I told her my part of the story and ignored to mention my friend's name when she asked..

Wasn't a very nice morning to beginning with..

Started crying whole day after hearing a song which is now on loop..

Went hospital to visit my mum this morning.. she was admitted to general ward and her face swollen like what -.-

Out of the blue.. a friend who doesn't contact me for years messaged me and chat with me.. till one point he say "fuck you. your stupid!" when I told him what's going on with my life... ya.. I wasn't suppose to have a good day to begin with...

NOW.. here comes stefan.. thinking I could mourn all my sorrow to him.. hoping he will be there to listen to me, comfort me, be there for me.. but NO.

when I try to explain to him what happen.. he says i'm talking singlish when I'm just using the word "don't" <-- which is not singlish!!

but he insist to argue with me.. I've no mood for any shit from anyone anymore as you can see I've a fucked up day... but you always like to ruin it further.......

so I don't wish to talk to you....

SO YA!! FML