not happening again?

ever since i started working i've a lot of people being too nice to me. i'm not sure what it means but i'm afraid of it. trying to stop myself from falling for anyone so easy. it had been too painful.. i really wish things were easier to see. will i ever stop this paranoid about bad things gotta happen in the future?

just can't help feeling that people just come and go. i'm so afraid of losing people :(

also that i saved up so much and work so hard for the trip and in the end it wont work out again.i really wish it will turn out well.. would really appreciate a nice 21st birthday..

i kinda miss you...

hope you feel the same..