Not good

Hais.. Recently my mum in hospital.. and I've some problems with myself... I don't feel like going to work at all... no mood.. completely...

and If not because I've to work so I've money to spend when Stefan is here.. and that I've to pay my court fee.... I wouldn't be working so intensively......

I feel that all my problems are constantly pushing me to give up on doing anything... just wanna stay at home and do nothing......... nothing seems to motivates me anymore...

when will this end...