I'm tired

I can't help feeling upset all the time when you told me you will talk to me tomorrow when you didn't.. I'll be waiting at home near my macbook to hopefully see you online and be able to talk to you..

I'm really tired though for it's not the first time when you told me that you will skype or talk to me the next day but you didn't.. Sad to say maybe you didn't realise I was texting Shaun to get to you too..

Today, Shaun got angry with me and told me not to text him anymore. Many feelings comes to me and I started tearing..

I felt upset cause I hate it when people get angry with me. I felt embarrassed for I might still see him in the future but his annoyed with me .. I felt angry and offended cause if you've kept to your words and skype with me as you told me I would not have annoyed Shaun..

It sucks that I can't contact you at all..

I really dont know anymore when will you call me.. neither have I got the faith to believe you anymore when you told me that you will call..

It's been one week of constant waiting.. sometimes good when you did call but sometimes its just horrible..

I'm confuse bout your feelings towards me cause you didn't even keep to your words all the times so am I not sure did you keep your words when you say you love me..

But nonetheless.. without a doubt.. I'm constantly thinking about you and I do love you...

sucks....

its so depressing...

I found myself missing you everyday..

every waking day i will wait anxiously for you to come on skype or pingchat me..

today i was so happy to have a chance to talk to you and see you again..

but half way through.. you went offline.. and there's an outage in your island..

i was left hanging.. i was really upset.. i miss you..

i really wish for a nice chat..

you told me you be going for dinner and you will try to skype/pingchat me again..

its 1130pm now.. I don't think so anymore....

its really depressing.. that whatever i do it brings back the days when i'm with you..

i feel awfully lonely.. im stuck at home.. i can't get a job to get myself busy.. neither can i get anyone to go out with me or talk to me..

it sucks..

it's so hard for me.. i thought missing someone is suppose to be a wonderful feeling..

why am i so depress.. why do i feel so lonely...

i just want to be with you.. to see you .. or even hear your voice..

i dont wish to wait ... i just want to see you..

i'm so jealous i can't be with you when you told me how beautiful the place is and the things you gotta do there..

its not fair...

i love you.............

the most awful miss call...

you called me and I was away in toilet i didn't hear my call neither did i hear my laptop rings..

I felt so regret and for instant i thought im in shit when i saw a miss call on my phone..

I quickly looked into skype and you were just pop up 'offline'

I pingchat! you but apparently your not with shaun..

I then saw you message on facebook.. I quickly try to 'chat' you on facebook but when i click on you, you went offline..

I was so close.. way too close :(

I've been waiting for your call the whole day.. and I just missed it just because I choose to go to the toilet and go without my phone which i normally do :((

I'm so sad... I miss you so much.. I wanna hear you again :((

I can't stop crying.. I regret going to the toilet at the wrong time...

I'll never ever leave my phone again :(

I miss you so much iain.. please call back :((

wo bist du

loneliness fills up without you

without your presents nor your voice.. i felt empty and lonely to the max..

im constantly feeling for you.. thinking about you..

i hope you feel the same.. hope your thinking about me too like you said..

you said we would talk today.. still dont know if your going to or probably be to tired from

traveling..

its so hard i feel like crying..

i love you iain..

please let these 2 weeks pass soon :'(

Today I had a nightmare..

I dreamt that a family across my block are jumping off their window one after another.. In my dream i was scare as hell as in reality i hate to see those things happen either..

I woke up in fright.. and when I open my eyes I wish I did able to see you.. but I realize I was just waking up on my lonely bed.. still waiting for you to call me..

In past days like this.. you probably still be online or at least contactable on whatsapp.. that I can tell you I had a nightmare and maybe you tell me everything is okay..

I miss you Iain..

Please call me soon :(

I'm so in love with you..

Every time when we're together i feel like a part of you.

Every time when we're apart i feel like i'm missing you like crazy.

I'm constantly falling in love with you.. and even dream about you when we were

sleeping together having your arm around me..

we're together for just a month but to me it's seems like its been years..

We've been to London, Paris & Thailand and i still wish we could continue traveling together in the future..

You've done so much for me its beyond words.. To be honest you've been the nicest person who ever treated me so well..

All the things you did for me was great but I love you to know that all it matters is for me to be able to spend time together with you lovingly :)

I'm really looking forward to see you again in 2 weeks.. and by then I hope we'll never have to part again.. moving in together staying together be it in Singapore or in UK.

I felt so awful to be away from you..

I miss you so bad.. and I hope this will be the last time..

Claire & Iain '14/04/11