Jealousy

It's really the greatest sin of my life.Envy.
My friend and I share to achieve a common goal together.Getting our car licenses,studying hospitality and get into a well known hotel and work our way up to executive.But different people lives really different life.
My friend got his car license smoothly as his parent pays for his driving lessons.While I'm still stuck now with no money to take my driving lessons and practical test.
His parent support him to study all his way up to degree,while I've to suffer like mad just to even pay my installment for my school fees.
Now he got a job at Fullerton Hotel as an Assistant Hotel Executive and I'm still stuck here trying so hard with all the interviews just to get an entry level job in a hotel.

I don't have a great dad or mum to support me financially for my future!And it's beyond my will that my Father is died and my mum has low income!Neither I've a filthy rich relative who knows people from great hotel to get me a job in it!NO! I was born with mole on my body and a scar on my hand when I was young!So that already destine me not being able to be an Air stewardess when I was young even I wanted to be so badly!And I'm fucking jealous of them!Everyone!What the point of giving me all the looks when I've such miserable life?!Get fucked around by guys and thrown around?!What is it of life that I can't fucking understand!

This shows a lot that God is unfair and I definitely HATE him the most!

Longest walk ever...

After my interview at ParkRoyal as a Guest Service Assistant,my friend needed me to be his hair model for his exam.I found that it's still early to meet my friend at Orchard around 7pm.Neither did I wanna go home and go out again or hang around like an idiot.So since it's already near 530pm this stupid idea came to my mind.Yes,walk my way to Orchard Rd.Partly because I need to save money for my last trip home so I didn't have much choice either.

I walked non stop from Beach Rd -> Bugis -> Dhoby Ghuat -> Sommerset ->Orchard.
This is the exact route I took...

Maybe because I'm walking alone and miserably,I thought it took me really long.Neither did I know how much mileage I've covered.My feet hurts like mad when I reach my destination and suprisingly,I reach TAKA just on time Hahaha.

During my friend's exam,He did a mild highlight on my hair so that it looks natural with dark base.I don't know if he pass his exam but I definiately hope so..
TADA~好看吗?Can't see much from a picture thou =\

Recently I found that girls like to put their naked picture of their face(meaning no make-up) on their blog.I dont know where the trend came from but most of the pictures I uploaded is with no make up.Even for this,I swear I didn't have anything on.Not even eyeliner or colour lens.So I don't find why the trend when I'm always doing it,Hahaha.

Shouldn't I be Happy?

Finally calls are coming in from ParkRoyal & Universal Studio today to attend for their interview!I was so Happy to hear all this and I shared with someone important the first thing I woke up.Sadly...After what he said I was no longer happy but angry.

Him:R u using a job agency?
Me:nope
Him:U mean all this time u have been sending out resumes to job ads on ur own?
Me:yupp
Him:Y didn't u go to recruitment agencies? I remembered telling u to do so
Me:Don't really count on them..I remembered having an interview by one of them last year and I didn't get any calls from them anymore
Me:and they charge you
Him:?? no they don't.recruitment agencies do not charge
Me:I signed on the document it stated there
Him:this is not the best time to say this, but seriously. U r hopeless
Him:I told u before there are many agencies out there. for every 1 that charges, 10 do not.
I got this job and my previous job thru agencies
Him:u r just so stubborn

What?! Just because I don't heed his advice searching for job through job agencies,I got scolded for no apparent reason!It totally pissed me off!At least I manage to get the job myself sending resume everyday doing the hard way.I don't deserve to be said as "Loser" "Hopeless" or "Stubborn"!
What happen to me about job agency is that I ever went to one called Recruit Express.I believe a lot of you know as it pretty known for.I remembered clearly..Super clear that this is what it stated:If you get a job from them they will deduct $50 from your first salary.If you were to quit the job within 3 months you have to pay 75% of your salary to the company.
This is bad enough moreover they didn't do their job looking for me as I never heard a single call from them ever since.

Anyway his being way unreasonable.So bad I didn't seen such a kind of person before.His the one who advice me to study(ok,reasonable.So I did.) and in the end advice me to stop studying.Wow such thing!Don't think you can control me with your "experience".Moreover you yourself said that you didn't heed your mentor advice when your young.What makes you think that I deserve to be scold and emotionally hurt by you instead of giving me your full support.I'm sorry but I'm a person who learn the hard way of life.I appreciate you trying to make me having it easier but it's not my kinda way.I'm so disappointed that I'm so wrong about you all this while looking you as a wise and understanding person who now apparently perished...

Every Rotary Fan's Dream

Mazda Furai

I'm so mad with myself...

and there's still nothing I can do..I can't sleep well as I even dream about it,waking up knowing that I didn't have a job and the days are coming closer and closer..I couldn't go back to sleep anymore cause I was scared..Everyday I never fail to search through Jobcentral, JobDB, Jobstreet,ST701,Straits times Recruit and sending my resumes..But my phone just choose to keep quiet the whole week...I'm tired..so tired..
I kept myself in my bathroom crying and screaming...so mad..
Why have I got to be so useless...so lonely...
I don't wanna result to what I did in the past...I don't want.....

I can't keep myself positive anymore..I fear for the day to come as long as I didn't have the things I need...which is the money to pay my school fees...
Please...let me study......
Now I know why people are avoiding me....Just cause I'm different...I couldn't control myself..and I really can't help it...I'm tired of putting on a fake mask to pretend that I'm happy...to pretend that nothing is happening...I just need a chance...a chance for me to study...It's disturbing me everyday..................

Dear Blog,
thanks for listening to me..and letting me type my complains and agony on you....guess your the only one which will listen to my problems without hating me or avoiding me...

My most exciting dream yet!

I dreamt I was in a resort on an island with a friend of mine.I felt things wasn't right when I look far into the dusk at the beach.I told my friend,"Hey,we got to run!Hurry"as I expected tsunami is going to happen o.O I grab my friend's hand and run towards the bridge to mainland.As we're about to cross the bridge it's already half flood and we have to swim over to the mainland after having the whole bridge flooded.When we reach on mainland's hotel lobby,the wave crash on land behind us.We wanted to hitch a yellow porsche with werid wheels for a ride to get out as far from the sea as we possible.So happen one of my Rx8 friend drove in to the hotel lobby,I told him that it isn't safe here and took his ride instead.While we're driving on ECP I saw this...

The waves are definitely out of the world as it's the height of a buliding and my friend's bumper got hit while trying to take a picture of it.We stop by a shopping centre by the beach(WHY!) -.- Seeing people by the cafe drinking coffee and just married couples celebrating at the sand.I was thinking why the hell are they still doing there?!One of my friend(who ran along with me)part after passing my friend's friend a resume?!After that something happen again!

A comet hit on the sea and like in the movies you can see the force circle around it after it hit.The hit was followed by a orange sparkles in the sky like firecrackers.In my mind I was like,"Fuck!Shit!"When I was about to run to the car in my dreams.....

My phone rang!!And I woke up -.-
The whole scenario is like being the movie huh?And what I dreamt was like a trailer or something.It's really exciting and awfully scary in the dream lols.

Anyway,Sorry about the poorly drawn sketches..Was doing it quick rough picture to show my friend while telling him the story lols.EH! My Art is A de okay!hehe

Being independent

It's seems to be a huge challenge for me all the time.Since very young I start to work and have no allowance..Everything I have currently,my phones,gadgets,clothes,license etc. I earned it myself.I really admire those whose parents give them allowances or support them either in schools,license or travel.I never even got a chance to fly and their all so fortunate..Especially my sister...She gets all the financial support for her study from my cousins and my mum.But I've to pay my own school fees...I don't know I should be mad all what but sometimes I felt like giving up as it's too much for me..So many problems but I'm always alone suffering on my own all these years..
I can't even study now..as I no longer have money to pay my school fees..not even having the money to eat soon..I've been staying at home the whole month other than going to school..eating only one meal a day,sometimes my phone won't even ring for the entire day..feeling really isolated...
Why can't I have a normal life..like a normal teenager who hangs out with friends and go to school without having to worry about school fees or having money to eat...or maybe having a proper family to live with...

My Top 4 Favorite Cars

Sequel is by price haha!If you notice their all white!Yes I want all my ride white!

Mazda RX8

This will also be the first car I get.Just nice I wanted that same AutoBahn body kit as well!

Porsche Cayman S

Girls just looks great driving in one =)

*Audi R8

Most favorite!This is the best of the best!

Ferrari F430

I believe is everyone's dream!Everyone drives Ferrari in Dreamland lols!

Heroes Season 3&4


I've just done spending my whole night watching Heroes Season 3.It seems that Heroes have develop a very very complicated plot.The ending of Season 3 is that Nathan was killed by Sylar.Later on in the show,Peter drugged Sylar and was mind controlled by Matt Parkman to convince Sylar that his Nathan,after which Sylar(who thinks that his Nathan)shape shifted to Nathan.
The complicated part is after 6 weeks,which is the beginning of Season 4.Nathan(Sylar) is able to listen and knows that the clock is 1 and a 1/2 min faster.That means Nathan(Sylar) still posses the ability of Sylar.
There're several argument in the forum that Nathan(Sylar)who knows will have the urge of killing other people with ability like the old Sylar as well.Thus Sylar is too cool to die in Heroes just like that.I love Sylar the most too!
Another argument is about Ali Larter aka Jessica,Nikki,Tracy coming back in water form(Water manipulation).Some believe that it IS Tracy whose back that during the 6 weeks Tracy's ability has involve from Ice to Water,just like Claire's Rapid Regeneration to unable to feel pain or Matt Parkman's mind reading to mind controlling.Others thought that it might be Barbara the unmentioned twins of Nikki and Tracy.Personally I thought It's gottna be Tracy whose back.So we'll see the answer soon on season 4.
The last thing I wanna mention about is How Peter be able to shape shift to Mr.President after absorbing Sylar's ability without touching any DNA of Mr.President.Confuse right?

That's why,I really feel like the urge of discussing it and posting it into my blog.I felt that Heroes is getting more complicated with all that unexpected twist and turn,I just hope it wont gets out of point.Look very forward to Heroes Season 4,things just keep going like it's never ending huh?

*Update*Guess what,I found this on Heroes wiki, pretty much answer something.

Volume 5: Redemption

As seen in the prelude in the finale of the fourth volume, Redemption begins six weeks after Fugitives. The prelude features Tracy, played by Ali Larter, who now has the ability to take a liquid form and is hunting down and killing former agents of "Building 26". Meanwhile, Sylar (who has been compelled to believe he is Nathan by Matt Parkman) is feeling increasingly distant. The prelude concludes with Nathan/Sylar being mesmerized by a clock in his office which is running one minute and a half fast. After seeing Nathan/Sylar correcting the clock, Angela appears worried over the hybrid creation.