I can't believe my past has put myself in such burden and grieve... I get real sensetive and burst out of things I'm unhappy... Ever since I've burden everyone I've met... Every decision I made seems to be wrong.. Everything I've done out of kindness and consideration is also wrong... And the people I fight so hard for are they really worth? 

I've nothing but guilt for those I've burden because of my past and my selfishness...

Yet I'm doing my very very best to be in the best form, to live out of my past and for once, trust. I wish for the patience of people around me... I'm sorry for ungrateful ness I'm sorry for being so difficult... 

Will I ever be happy for once...............