I found out I'm really just a bad omen in people's life... Throughout this trip I've lost 3 people whose been a big part of my life lately.. I can't help but to feel how much is of my fault to blame and feel bad for giving them such difficult time that they would want me out of their life...

I'm sorry I couldn't be normal and I always seems to have so much problems in hand.. I'm always hoping someone could be understanding and supporting.. But I just keep losing them..and I will only come to defeat myself into understanding others...

I don't really want to let people in my life anymore... I don't want them to feel my burden... Don't want to give anyone a reason to leave again...

I deserve to be alone...