The Doctor and Rose [Ten/Rose] Say Something

I'm still grieving...

This haunting is never ending...

Now that you're happy with her... Nothing I say here will ever matter anymore...never has been anyway 

It's the end of me... the curtains has closed... everything will fade to black

You never change your profile picture the whole duration while we were together.... 

She must be really special...

The Script - Breakeven with Lyrics

The shock bleeds the red from my face

When I see someone's taken my place.

How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?

When all, all that I did was for you

I can't breath...

He live happily ever after...

She fall into a void of eternal darkness...

The End

In the end I'm always the one alone....

for so long I've been waiting... hanging on to your words that you will talk to me again soon when you feel better...

but that was always the oldest trick in the book...

how stupid i am to have waited.... that i've never stop loving and thinking about you...

and now you've move on with someone else...

i will never see or hear from you again..............

i am once again been replace.......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

You hate me...

Why am I still grieving... ?

There is never a day that I don't think of you, 

There is never a day I won't feel pathetic I've lost you,

There is never a day I could truly forget you.....

Here I am living my regrets... I will never be happy again....

Sigh... Just going to face your not coming back...that your happy now

:(

i wish you well.......

I'm still missing you...

IWill you ever talk to me again...

Have I really lost you... I felt so alone... And every night I can only think of you...

No one have ever replace you... 

And I still miss you...

It's all my fault... Sigh...

So pathetic I am...

Have you forgotten me? :(

John Farnham - Burn for You

I had a dream.....

I was on a mission, for a surprise visit. I know my destination, I've to tell the taxi driver to drive me as close to this place as possible with whatever money I have. I walk through shady pubs with people fighting and avoiding vicious stray dogs. I went in to the telephone booth wanting to make an anonymous call and leave a message saying happy birthday.But I finally arrived in his house, he didn't know I was there. He was sitting on his desk doing his work making sad comments of himself. I finally found the courage to show up in front of you and it was almost a bliss to see you again James.. You said this is going to be the last night I stay with you before you go. You pull her towards you, kissed her on the lips and told me she's your girlfriend. 

I'm was so sad and embarrass I don't know where to hide............ So I wake up.... Crying....

Happy Birthday James

I wish you be happy and successful in everything you do.

Please be happy.

I really miss you x

Claire

I hope you are well... I miss you

I'll never get over you... Picture of your face ever in my head..

No one will ever understand me more than you.. How could I ever live knowing that the only person who truly understands me have left.....

Seeing so many happy comments and pictures of couples and friends just remind me of my failures as a human Being

I felt very much the same... thats exactly what its been killing me everyday.. looking in at Facebook seeing other people better off than me.. Makes me miss you more. How truly I am the most happy with you. But my light has gone.

I'm sorry I'm the reason why you feel like a failure

I hate myself so much of all the thing I've ever done to you. I will never forgive myself!! I can never!! I deserve everything that's is happening to me now!!! I don't deserve you and I deserve to die and rot alone for all my life!!! I hate myself so much I couldn't look at myself in the mirror... I couldn't think about us regretting in what I have done!!! I will forever be in grief misery and regret........

I love you.... But I will never forgive myself for what I've done to you..... I'm sorry...... I'm so sorry.... I'm so so sorry... Please..... I'm really sorry... I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry.... I deserve to die....... Maybe I will... Cause I deserve it and I can't live my life thinking about us everyday and what I've done to you...... It's killing me.....

I miss you so much and it's killing me everyday

Have you heard
Have you tried to understand
It's all right
It gets easier with time

How are you
Are you ever coming back
I have changed
And I've realized I was wrong

I was wrong
Now I'll never see your face anymore
Oh my Love
I'd give anything for one more day with you

I'm getting through
I wish you felt the way I do
I have changed
And I've realized I was wrong

I was wrong
Now I'll never see your face anymore
Oh my love
I'd give anything for one more day with you

I was wrong
I was wrong
Now I'll never see your face anymore
Oh my love
I'd do anything for one more day with you

I'd do anything for one more day with you
I'd give anything for one more day with you

even looking at a beautiful scenery...

i feel so empty... i feel a strong sense of lost...

i'll forever be alone...

no one will ever like me... let alone love me....

i will die alone...

he will never forgive me.....

Killing myself every night knowing that I've lost you.. Knowing that I'll never find someone quite like you again :(

what have I done...

Will the day ever comes...

I just wish you feel the same :( I have nothing but regret and hate

I'm always there always trying... But I feel so small so worthless and unimportant.

It's not fair...

It's not fair... How so much we're connected... But you don't see it.

Spent hours speaking to you hoping we could continue. But you just disappear... Again

Like nothing ever happen...




It was just few days ago, I've been playing the whole soundtrack of Braid for days...

Maybe your too perfect for me.

I don't deserve someone like you.

its been strange how things are connected... i know you are out there...

why don't you talk to me?

I won't lie...

everyday I wait... and  every night I died...

I will never stop blaming myself for everything, a constant circling in this agony..

I'm not a pilot... not anymore...

love is like a jaeger, you need two people to pilot it. but i've lost my co-pilot... and there will never be anyone who is drift compatible....

Say Something...

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere, I would have followed you
Oh-oh-oh-oh say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something

"When your having trouble in a relationship and you know that things are coming to an end but you want so badly to hang and make it work. You want to be “the one” for them but only if they want to accept you as theirs. You will do anything for them, follow them wherever they go but they wont do the same. You feel like you’re the only one in the relationship trying to make it work. It seems like the other person has no hope but you want them to say something, anything to make you stay and keep on fighting. All these overwhelming feelings make you feel so small. Going into the relationship you didn’t know what you were getting your self into. You have never loved like this before, there are going to be obstacles, you will stumble and fall but you will learn and keep going. After all the pleading and asking them to stay you just cant keep going, you are finally giving up, you are sorry that you couldn’t get them to stay. I love you but I need to swallow my pride, accept defeat, and say goodbye."

Everyone is definitely happier without me...

I'm just a fucking disease...

I miss you James

I'm scared..

I'm scare to say the wrong things but yet I want you so much...

I'm scare you be mad at me and won't speak to me again...

I'm scare you are talking to other girls...

I'm scare you don't love me...

I'm scare I don't know where I stand and I feel so alone...

I want you... I want all of you...

I don't want to be just a girl who speak to you at night before you sleep...

I want to be the girl you once ever wanted... The most special and important girl in your life...

I'm really depress and alone...

I don't know what to do...

Could we ever be how we used to be? 

It's chinese new year again...

I was never happy... during chinese new year... especially not this year...

My family is still accusing my of stealing money when I've been staying at home since I got back.. I've to call in sick for work cause I've no money for work.. I only got to go to work yesterday from the money my brother give me each time he borrows my iPad.

My mum ask me if i took money from the cat coin bank, the thing is I don't even know there was money in there in the beginning ! My mum asked my brother and he say NO! I've $10 taken from me and I didn't even say anything... So as obvious as it seems if i would've taken the money I won't be eat instant noodles everyday at home with water....

I can't stand this household... I can't stand everyone is treating me this way!

I don't even know what I'm going to say when my relative ask about my trip about james.... I just wish I don't break down on the spot....

seriously.... I wish to be dead....

every night when I go to sleep I ask myself If I die in my sleep will I be sad ?

the answer is always.......no

James...

Of all these time we've gone through together... and the things I've ever done for you but never anyone else...

This is what I get...

You ignore my calls... and decline them...

You don't reply my messages...when you said you will message me...

You left me hanging here... Not knowing where I stand...

I never got a proper answer... I never have a explanation...

I was never told what was going on...

Is this what I deserve... ?

I wake up scare every night knowing that you ignore me...

I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart.
And killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a fire.
As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!

will you ever speak to me again...?

I guess you probably didn't want to talk to me and is looking for someone online now to replace me like you've been when I was there...

Still I will wait for your call and messages....

I miss you

Everyday I'll hug it to sleep as it smells like you.. It makes me feel less alone..

the outsider in my own home.

I have to skip working today cause I don't have anymore money to take myself to work. My mum ain't helping me cause she's still mad at me for calling her crazy when she ask me to help her at work the same morning I came home at 11pm from a 14 hrs flight from England.

I can't help but feel so lonely that everyone is against me even in my own home. My mum is still mad at me for refusing to help her at work..
My cousins ranted about me on Facebook just because I might have left some utilises around when I was making food in the kitchen. They had a birthday celebration going on in the living room and I wasn't even invited...

I spent most of my time at home in my room, cause that's the only place I'm feel comfortable in without being nag from my mum or ignored by everyone else. Nobody talks me to even.

It hurts... to know.. even your own family in your own home hated you and annoyed at you. Maybe I deserved it...

No one will even know... if one day I die in my bed...

Its.. so.. painful...

" I don't know" says James

and that's where I stand for everything.

and all the respond I receive was agitated or in angry.

No matter where I stand in your life... even if you ' don't know' always remember
that I love you...

I can't forgive myself for all the things i've said to you...
you truly don't deserve it...

and I don't deserve you...

I don't like to wake up at late hours only to know the first person in my mind is you...
Yet having to remind myself that... I can no longer easily get to you... or will you even talk to me...

I don't know what to do...

I love you so much... but why can't you see it...that its hurting me

It's happening... The saddness has taken me..

I was really scared to sleep but now I woke up 3 hrs later terrified and lonely... This is what I hate the most... Please.. I rather just have a really long sleep...

James... I miss you...

strong one sided love

I've just constantly put myself in disappointment no matter how many time I try to bite it through and talk as if I wasn't hurt or affected.. But I know in the end I can only take this much...

James doesn't sound to keen to talk to me when I give him a ring when I got home. He was irritable and was using angry tone at me... Even if he said I wasn't annoy but I felt so strongly enough that I am... 

My greatest fear to being alone, but I never thought being alone cause you felt like everyone is annoyed at you and not wanting to speak to you is so painful it's almost unbearable...  

Nothing good ever happen when I come home...

I only find myself crawling into bed curling up and let the darkness swallows me..

You won't even sound keen to speak with me anymore,.. I don't know if I should even look for you anymore...You don't have any signs that you miss me or excitement to hear from me... It's really different when I last came home from Sydney...

I miss the then you... What have I done....

I miss you already...

There are so much things I have done for you and no one else..but it's just not good enough... And I'm just asking for a little love a little attention...

I'm starting to think if it's really worth it :( cause whatever I've done was never appreciate or seen. And I can't help feeling neglected for.. Even when I'm sick myself I worry more about you...

I wish I'm strong enough... I consciously know that all this is wrong but still I'm scare and hopeful... Please give me strength..

Being hopeful you've to always expect disappointment.. 

You've to be strong and hold it in and tell yourself it can be better tomorrow..

But I'm just feeling defeated....

This is all an act?

Will the curtains close when I go home? 

It's the last day it's the last night... I'm glad I was able to spend these short moments with you..
I'm scare of missing you or to even think that if I'll ever see you again.

I love you... But will you ever be mine again :(

I wish time will freeze and be able to spend more time with you even it's to the point of extending my trip :(

I found out I'm really just a bad omen in people's life... Throughout this trip I've lost 3 people whose been a big part of my life lately.. I can't help but to feel how much is of my fault to blame and feel bad for giving them such difficult time that they would want me out of their life...

I'm sorry I couldn't be normal and I always seems to have so much problems in hand.. I'm always hoping someone could be understanding and supporting.. But I just keep losing them..and I will only come to defeat myself into understanding others...

I don't really want to let people in my life anymore... I don't want them to feel my burden... Don't want to give anyone a reason to leave again...

I deserve to be alone...

No gain with courage

For the last few days I've been tossing in bed.. Thinking about us... Missing you...

Till a point I was afraid to wake up when I fall asleep... Waking up to the reality that your no longer mine and it just me in a cold lonely bed... 

I can't forget your face...

Today I finally got the courage to send you a message and even try to call you... I rang you up with my uk number.. You pick up and say hello.. It was a tiny moment of bliss when I hear your voice... But just after I said hello, could you hear me..?

You hang up on me...

You continued to turn off your phone when I tried to ring again...

I can feel my chest tightens and darkness crawls in...

I was just really really wish to see you again before I leave for home.....

I miss you really much...

But I can't help to understand now how much you didn't want me in your life anymore... I'm sorry for what I've done... But I guess there's no other chance since it has come to this...

It's been a long and painful fight for you... No matter how hard to try to have you again I lose you... It's my pain to bear...

But always remember that I'll always love you...

And because I love you, it gave me the last strength to let you go to find your happiness without me :( 

I couldn't let him know his good enough...

I couldn't lt him know his perfect...

I couldn't let him know how much he means to me...

I couldn't let him know how much I don't deserve him...

It's all my fault...

I wanna see you again so bad :(

Be able to touch you, feel you and look into your eyes again...

I really really miss you

The Boxer Rebellion - If You Run

is it really the end...?

I cannot forgive myself ever...

I miss you so much James...

please come back...

I got kicked out...

I still think a lot about the first night we met...

:( 

I can't believe my past has put myself in such burden and grieve... I get real sensetive and burst out of things I'm unhappy... Ever since I've burden everyone I've met... Every decision I made seems to be wrong.. Everything I've done out of kindness and consideration is also wrong... And the people I fight so hard for are they really worth? 

I've nothing but guilt for those I've burden because of my past and my selfishness...

Yet I'm doing my very very best to be in the best form, to live out of my past and for once, trust. I wish for the patience of people around me... I'm sorry for ungrateful ness I'm sorry for being so difficult... 

Will I ever be happy for once...............

I don't know what I can do... It's been a week... Still it's going nowhere... James still giving me the cold shoulder.. He refuse to be close with me ... Don't feel like his gf at all... Not even a friend... I'm just treated like a nobody...

I wish I know how to make him happy... But I fail every single time... My head hurts so much... I feel so desperate... I feel so trapped... We spent so much money and time together... And yet this is what we end up just cause of a petty argument... I don't wanna regret my time spent with you being like this... I love you... But I don't know what can I do... I don't want this... I can't help feeling that my days are so limited here but your just pushing me away when we can spend happy quality time together....

I don't know what esle to say but I'm sorry for being such a horrible person ... 

I do trust you and please understand I always say the wrong things when I'm angry... 

Please let's work this out together... 

There's only 9 days left... 

Help.. I don't know what to do..

I cook for you and I clean for you but not only you wont have dinner with me that I cooked you didn't say thank you. All you said was ' I didn't ask you to do so...'

I can't feel anymore neglected...

You didn't wanna talk to me... You didn't  even ask me how am I...

And when I ask you why not all you do is calling god...

I'm being house arrest...

I'm trapped with someone who didn't appreciate or even look at me...

I feel like I owe everything...

please stop i just want to be close :(